Rt Hon Pat McFadden MP is the Government Minister with responsibility for postal affairs: email Pat McFadden
I am pleased that the dosage affecting me this evening must be low and that there can be little admixed stimulant raising my anger to counterproductive levels and causing me to rush so that I do not explain myself as I might. I am not pleased that the drugging I suffer continues though, and find it astonishing (as I indicated) that such advantage-taking is permitted in a supposedly civilised country.
It is a self-amplifying loss of detailed awareness of the world, involving reduced enjoyment of the senses as well as - part and parcel - reduced interest and a reduced desire to engage in activities. I am left open to those wishing - presumably to validate what has been compelled on me in the past - to continue the pretence that these drugs do me no hurt and cause me little inconvenience, who can state their case even if it is a foolish case and seem to have the status to be believed and to persuade those who should take action against such criminality to hold off.
Apart from this the direct effect on my awareness of what is around me and of what is going on in the world is a great cost to me, in loss of enjoyment of the senses and of interesting cogitation and planning for future engagement with the world (not necessarily the world of Society). When I was so terribly affected by dopamine-blocking that I could not write computer programs at all - that is ideas for what to do with computers which were becoming ever more powerful and cheaper for what they were capable of were completely absent from my head, even though in earlier years I had had a great interest and had been full of ideas for what at the best times now returns available as an immensely enjoyable hobby - it was a great loss to me. It was a loss too in financial terms, because I could have earned a large salary from something I greatly enjoyed doing, and might have come up with some application which I could have turned into a profit-making solution for commercial use. This evening I have been attempting to write a program to prepare my recent diary for my [British-hosted] website, and the slowness of my progress and the related fact that I have become bogged down and almost lost sight of the importance originally of getting my message onto the website (the main purpose lately being as I say to expose what it is I lose from being spiked continually, in the hope that those permitting the drugging will have a change of heart) have been caused by the drugs affecting me (and affecting Dawn too, who has had to go to bed early).
The summary of what it is that hurts me so in these drugs I am given without my foreknowledge or consent amounts to this, that they reduce my rate of participation in life (in a somewhat parallel way to being in a continuous sedation, and moreover being taken advantage of while sedated by people who in the past may have got away with pretending they had my best interests at heart). I cannot achieve what I want to achieve anywhere near so effortlessly and quickly, and sometimes (in the past when dosages were higher) I have achieved nothing because I have lost heart or forgotten what it was I had to do because of the delay.
My attempts to communicate complaints about the spiking have been interfered with in other ways than by corrupting the proper treatment my mail should receive from the British Post Office. Attempts have been made to influence the website hosts I use in a similar way, that is to make difficult or stop entirely my publishing the facts through my websites. I cannot feel sure - especially when my capacity to assess evidence is debilitated (as it is now this evening) by the dopamine-blocking drugs - whether my websites are freely available to the public as they should be. The visitor statistics altered noticeably at the turn of the year, so that it is evident that in 2008 the websites were not available freely as they should have been. It is entirely possible that the altered visitor statistics represent merely a change in the efficiency of the distortions introduced into what I have to go on to assess the truth. That is, whether the ‘man in the street’ can read what I write on my websites, freely as should be, I do not know, given the evidence that in the past there has been successful blocking of what I write. This is the ‘man in the street’ who I suspect would find the treatment I receive given such interferences as delays and complete blocking of my post and of my internet communication as well as the ‘treatment’ of being spiked continually with drugs which I by no means consent to and which do me great detriment and hurt: would find them to be astonishing and to be condemned, and would find it extremely surprising if told this harassment is seemingly within the law.
I am writing this letter in the hope of exposing the detriment being spiked with dopamine-blocking drugs does me. I have been spiked again today with such drugs - most likely in pastry mix bought at Asda Merry Hill yesterday [I have since concluded this was a mistaken guess - note added 25/01/09 06:42] - and the effect is to delay what I had in hand, which essentially was in pursuit of stopping this spiking I continue to suffer. A great deal of my time and energy are devoted lately to trying to stop the spiking: in effect this is time taken from me for which I am receiving no payment and which indeed is a cost to me (for example because I send so many letters to try to convince people who may be able to help that they should help). My MP Ian Pearson should help me but the cost to me in trying to recruit his help is increased in various ways and unusual ways. For example because what I send through the post has been interfered with - that is delayed or lost in what must be a deliberate campaign, this provable by the ridiculous signatures supplied by Royal Mail Customer Services as supposed evidence of delivery - and because despite explicit requests in my latest letter I have had no definite acknowledgment from Ian Pearson’s office of receipt of my letters, I cannot be sure that my requests to him for help have reached him properly. I would have thought that the police should help me put a stop to the interferences placed in the way of my stopping the spiking, and indeed pursue the seeming criminals responsible for the spiking. The reason they do not must be that those directing the spiking are in a position of influence (presumably within the Civil Service and presumably allied to the Mental Health Act Commission). It must be so since the spiking I suffer is so widespread: that is so many places we buy food - including all cafés we go to hereabouts - have been alerted to supply us drugged foods.
21 January 2009 - A draft letter to my GP
